Tuesday, March 23, 2010

颓废

越来越懒
越来越颓废
越来越失去目标
越来越迷失自己

每天每天
漫无目的地过着懒人日子

会是压力吗
让 我想逃,想出去喘口气。。
好怕,好怕那未知的前方
胆却。。
不想再比了
不用再比了
我就是那个最没有用的,
行 了吗?

明明自己很幸福
受着那么多上天的恩惠
发生意外去世了的不是我
地震的不是我所在的城市
旱灾十多天没 得冲凉的,
受着强沙尘天气影响的也不是我所在的国家
明明比谁都更该懂得惜福的
却。。

昨天的我,
立志当个 废人
所谓废人就是什么也不管既什么也管不了
什么都不必管,多悠哉,多自由啊~
跟废人最亲密的东西就是。。。床 (这个废人还真好命,不用睡街边,还有床睡呢!)
一天之内除了睡,废人最关心的就是“吃”了啦
就这样,
把社会,把世间
一 切一切的压力,眼光,期许,等等等。。
抛到九霄云间的1800里之外
做个逍遥自在的开心废人^^

(当然这是废人在床上作 的白日梦幻影~~)





Saturday, March 13, 2010

几时才能笑着和你挥手?

不知是哪里冒出来的毅力(愚蠢?)
不想放弃

可能只是,
不想被世人投以 _ _ 眼光,
还是,
想要证明什么似的
允许了这样的恶性循环


很多东西,无法弄清,开始抓狂,崩溃。。
累得已经无力了

才愿把答案揭晓
就这样
不停地不断地一次又一次地
把碎了满地的心一片一片地又捡回来
然后,
说服自己,
其实事情并没想象的那么糟啦
就将就将就下。。
就多体谅下。。
就忍忍下。。
球就还会是完好的圆形
一切还会是好好的

自虐倾向?
只是不想后悔,不想遗憾,不想放弃。。

这些他又了解了多少?
就算了解了,会有改善吗?
其实答案已了

潇洒地放手
为了,不再因他而流泪

这肯定不是我想要证明的结果
那,我又有多大能耐呢?

或许
交通警察应该来开罚单,
制止这类事件妨碍地球正常运转。

疑惑,为何能如此轻言放手
或许对你而言
这并没什么大不了

或许
不懂的,是我
不愿接受那才是最好的收场
既然
我给不了
他满足不了


与其说证明,还不如是自私的希望
希望他是那个唯一

他是吗?

也或许只是我们还不够成熟

或许换季了,时机不成熟了。。

Thursday, March 11, 2010

are you going out of your mind? by Ed and Deb Shapiro



Often one of the most insulting things someone can say to us is, “Are you out of your mind?” But what if it is actually the coolest thing we could say? What if being out of your mind meant you are not disturbed by the madness of your mind and are more in touch with your feelings, your heart, and your freedom!


Have you ever wondered how extraordinary the mind is? How it can reach from the sublime heights of intellectual ecstasy to the depths of suicidal despair, from piercing clarity to confused schizophrenia? It is the same mind that longs for that sumptuous chocolate cake or that stunning dress or shirt, then afterwards may wonder why we ate something so rich, or lets the clothing go unworn in the closet and feels guilty that we bought it in the first place.



This mind is capable of understanding the most intricate scientific and mathematical theories and can make complicated corporate decisions, yet the same mind can get caught up in trivia and nonsense, becoming upset or even unglued over a seemingly harmless remark. It runs out lives, pushing us in all directions, from attraction to repulsion, creating endless dramas that act out our insecurities and fears.



There is no denying the importance and value of the mind–there is great brilliance and beauty here–but there is also great absurdity. Thinking, for instance, is not wrong at all, but are our thoughts constructive ones or do they generate further confusion? For no matter how intellectually astute or creative we may be, this aptitude often has little or no effect upon the habitual mind and its repetitive patterns: the fear, guilt, anxiety, neurosis, shame, and self-centerdness.


Humankind has come a long way in terms of physical evolution; we have developed our world beyond any other known life form and have achieved enormous technical advancement, but there is still a long way to go in the evolution of consciousness. Evolution takes us from the gross to the subtle, while involution takes us from the subtle to the sublime. We have yet to touch the depth of true wisdom and liberation that is our natural state by turning within instead of outside ourselves.



The tragedy is that this mental play is considered to be normal. We become exhausted maintaining our dramas and thinking patterns — “My mind is so busy it is driving me crazy!” — as if this were some sort of achievement. In order to reinforce these patterns we surround ourselves with people who think and feel the same way. It is a basic human need to feel loved and that we belong, so as long as there are others out there supporting and agreeing with us we feel fine.



When we get out of our minds and into our heart, then we get away from our insecurities, worries, judgments and self-centeredness, away from everything that keeps us lost, scattered and fearful, away from the dramas and stories that reinforce who we think we are. As we said in our blog, The Greatest Gift You Can Give Yourself, on Oprah.com/spirit, “In essence, meditation is simply about calming our chattering monkey-like mind and being aware and present in this moment.” And the great Zen teacher Alan Watts, said, “We all need to go out of our minds at least once a day!” In other words, we all need to come out our minds and into our hearts.



Imagine you are free of all the limitations and difficulties you are dealing with, see if you can actually create that vision of being free of who you think you are. Just close your eyes and see yourself as a completely free being with nothing stopping you from being or doing anything you want to. You can be happy! You can be free!



Have you ever felt you were out your mind? How did you deal with it?